As the title suggests it's been quite awhile since I've written in here. I've no place to really vent anywhere but that's ok. Not sure if I'll actually go ahead and use this all the time but the hope is to do so. Maybe learn how to navigate the site and customize my profile and the likes.
I'm back in Kansas. Went through school again and again. Had a wonderful relationship broken but a daughter of 6 months is now involved, and I'm just now on the birth certificate. Tough situation. My fear is I'll fall back worse (and I mean worse cuz it's been bad) into drugs and alcohol but I'm fighting it. Trouble still seeks around the corner. I hate the midwest with so much passion!
As I was sitting here re-downloading all my pictures from many sites (ain't done haha) I couldn't help but reminice. Problem is in some of those reminices are people who've caused issues in the past and I can't seem to delete them. Kinda like I can't seem to delete the people in my life currently that I desparately need to
Lonliness and Fear are two really horrible combonations.
But ya work hard, you manage, you somehow come up with all 3 cases fines, and the custody battle I'm sure is to ensue and continue on. What else can you do?
What do you do when your life is in the shambles and you could result into a really bad situation coming up once court hits?? It's alot, as well as my mental health state. I'm not psychotic, just emotionally and cognitively....*can't think of the word.* Doi!! LOL
I have to think of my daughter! She's getting big and she's so absolutely gorgeous! She's got my eyes and ears!!! Her eyes are my brown only way more beautiful. I love her and don't wanna mess up the chance to see my little girl. Gotta straighten up my life again! Another swift kick in the ass would do!
Until next time kids...help me use this site more often.
Lata
I finally got my third tattoo. w00t!
Well I have not posted here in ages........
Been so busy, but good busy I am loving working from home, and loving teaching people about how to have safer homes and greener lives.
today preaching up the live earth gig and learning how folks can make simple changes to effect big change..
and I am hella hot still this heat wave in the west nonsense sucks
i tell ya days like today i want to be less green and have some serious AC on LOL
but by the time installing an ac comes around, it wont be so hot
love
t
Have not really posted much, here or anywhere in truth.....
Been very, very busy with sorting out work and direction to go.
Had to do a rather LARGE house cleaning of who I was spending time with, only one person leaves me in a "politically correct" issue. Needing to avoid her and being forced to spend time with her. I have done a damn nice job (if I do say so myself) since what I really wanted was to bludgeon her to death LOL
Of course no one should say such things anymore out loud, especially in a blog after all everyone can see and it can be seen as a "problem".
Why Americans are so afraid of truth i never have understood...
I seem to have a tug in my heart lately for my children...been thinking a LOT of where we came from, where we are headed and some of the choices I have made.
Knowing full well it is a waste one can not go back....
anyway
love
t
If you have not yet seen Planet Earth on the Discovery channel you NEED to. The work is amazing, the pictures, the truth, the animals the story of our planet.
Rarely am I moved by anything on TV, and even more rare do I tell people to consider purchasing something. But the DVD's of this series would be a worthy investment for your home.
You really can do no justice to the amazing feat these folks undertook to achieve this, and you really need to see it.
Not just because today is Earth day, not just because every day SHOULD be earth day, but because it will move your soul.
love
t
Seems like a lot of stress is around and about me, trying to suck my energy from me so it can continue. Leaving me feeling a bit like a hardass for saying nope, run along, here is the line cross it and get smacked hard.
sigh
love
t
Changes Throughout
Casey-Jack Kitos
Amazing how quickly happiness comes and goes.
Amazing how life is so complicated and difficult to understand.
Amazing how something so good could be put into question.
Amazing how it is amazing to be satisfied.
Amazing how it is to finally have identity.
Amazing how it is to be cherished, complimented, and encouraged.
Amazing how in difficulties come triumph.
Amazing how sadness can be quickly turned into happiness with a simple gesture.
Amazing how it is to be called "daddy."
Amazing how it is to have the positive attention needed for so long.
Amazing how it is apathy can be turned into empathy.
Amazing how fear can creep into being from a simple reminder of the past.
Amazing how a once deep passion can be resurrected, although not at the same
intensity.
Amazing how seeing a caring soul can make one feel incredibly complete and
satisfied.
Amazing how differing styles can collide in one little burst of creative energy
and passion.
Amazing how similar interests can intersect and push the limits of overbearing.
Amazing how genuinely romantic a light dinner, wine and movie holding each
other quietly can be.
Amazing how the love from one radiates happiness, and the happiness from the
other will radiate love.
Amazing how a strenuous day can turn into a relaxed day with just a hug.
Amazing how an infant can bring together two people in soulful happiness.
Amazing how a walk with mommy, baby, puppy, and oneself is subtle and colorful.
Amazing how music can influence change in one's heart.
Amazing how opportunities can arise in darkness.
Amazing how a bad happening turns into rewards.
Amazing how fate can be changed with mistakes.
Amazing how a change can occur from T.V.
Amazing how one's influences change.
Amazing how pain brings happiness.
Amazing how it is....Amazing!
© 2007 Casey-Jack Kitos
Team Vox posted recently about the Vox Windows XP Uploader.
some people commented about being unable to get it to work under Windows Vista.
after some googling, i found a fix.
installation:
- open the
.regfile in your favorite text editor. - in the key name, change "
\Explorer\PublishingWizard\PublishingWizard\Providers\" to "\Explorer\PublishingWizard\InternetPhotoPrinting\Providers\". - save.
- run the
.regfile. - confirm that you do want to merge this file with your registry.
- run Windows Photo Gallery.
- select the photos and/or videos that you want to upload. Windows Photo Gallery does not support audio files at this time.
- under the "Print..." menu, you'll find the "Order prints..." option. select that.
- "Vox" should appear in the list. it'll be near the bottom since it's in alphabetical order. select it.
- click "Send Pictures". if you get a dialogue box that asks if you want to "send pictures to the print company", click the "Send" button.
- the program will then connect you to the Vox Windows XP Uploader webpage.
- it will prompt you for your Vox username and password.
- follow the on-screen instructions.
OK a few things.....First, OHIO STATE WON!!! But UCLA lost so it's Ohio State and Florida for the Championship. GO OSU!!! WOOT WOOT!!! 61-59 Here's the game...Florida's got the advantage in the paint with Noah hitting from the line and the pocket. Ohio State has got the advantage over Florida with 3pt shooting and rebounds with ugly under the basket! lol Nah, but it's all good! It's gonna be a good game.
Secondly I love my car! I still need a name for her though so get that creative butter churning!
Next, I think we're going to start Premarital Counseling with Pastor Tom, maybe, or maybe we'll start that in 6 months. Either way we're going to start preparing for marriage. Yes I know, and don't say anything! This feels perfect spiritually, physically and emotionally. I've never been happier or more complete.
Lastly, if you don't support me, piss off, if you get mad tough!!! Yeah I said it! What now!
Right now I'm tryna get her to take the night off and go home and rest and we'll pick up baby in the morning and go to this church in Rio Rancho. Or take the night off and spend it with me with no distractions out on a date or something. No we don't have a date set, no we're not engaged, but beware...that day WILL come....................................................................soon................maybe :-) And invitations will be sent presuming I have addresses.....there's toooooooooooo many people I would want to invite. How rediculous!
Anyway, let me be happy and live in my delusional world that it's absolutely unbelievable and perfect! LOL
Yes I'm fine! So.....get back to thinking of names for my car!!!
tikvah
-solemn
